I know, I know...just as I promise a regular blogging schedule I go and disappear for almost a week without any notice. What gives, right? Well, my Friends, I've been busy. Much busier than I thought I would be actually. Surprised? Yeah, I didn't think so. I wish I could say that I've been knitting up a storm and have been churning out FOs galore, or that I've been sewing like a madwoman trying to make enough stock to do a decent shop update. Um, yeah...no. I'm not doing neither of those things. No, what I've been doing is spending the past week helping my little Munchkin transition into preschool/daycare.
I originally wasn't planning on putting the Munchkin into preschool, as I was hoping to spend the time with him before he started kindergarten. But you see, my little Monkey has a speech and language "disability" (re: he's a bit behind from others in his age group) and his Speech-Language Pathologist, as well as his Children's Behaviour Development team, has recommended that he be in preschool a few times a week. Not only are transitions über hard for my little guy, but the Munchkin has never really been far from either me or Brett and so this is quite the huge adjustment for him. The transition is 4 days long and the first day started out great. Sadly, the second day was absolutely horrible and I can't say for sure who cried more - the Munchkin, or me. My heart broke so many times to see how hard this change was for my Munchkin, and to see just how brave he was trying to be. My heart goes out to all the sweet little Friends who tried to make the Munchkin feel better and like he belonged there. Day 3 went a little better, and today...well, today I am at home for an hour...by myself. I know! I seriously cannot believe it either! It took me a long time to leave and so I sat in the truck in the preschool parking lot knitting and trying to not hyperventilate. One of the preschool facilitators had to push me out and told me the Munchkin was doing fantastic and had yet to cry! I am SO proud of my little man!!
I will admit that I felt horrible for making my baby go to preschool and for having to deal with this massive change in routine all at once. And yet I felt like the worse mother ever for not doing something like this sooner, since I could already see and hear a difference in the Munchkin's verbal skills after day 3. I will also admit that I was scared shitless that extra help wouldn't be in place yet, as the Munchkin is on a wait list for an Autism Spectrum Disorder assessment, and therefore it is unknown as to what kind of extra help he'll need. I know that there are a lot of other parents with kids who have Autism and that I'm not alone, but not knowing if my child does or does not have Autism kind of makes me feel very alone (and teary eyed!). Knowing that the Munchkin's preschool is familiar with and has dealt with children of all disorders and disabilities has really put my restless mind at ease. I know that all of this is great for the Munchkin and will help him in so many ways. I just need to learn to let go of his hand so that he can fly away from the nest and become his own little being.
So cheesy. Sorry! Ok, before the waterworks start let's change the subject! So since the days have been spent driving a ton (ok, for the record, all this driving is a lot for me! I don't really drive much but Brett has been determined to boost my driving confidence. Here's a little tidbit that you may not know about me: I only have 20% vision in one of my eyes. I was in a major MVA that had fractured my skull that severed my optic nerve. Since my blind spot really is blind, I get really nervous about driving.), consoling the Munchkin, and doing/getting things that a kidlet needs for preschool, I've been too poop to do anything else but pass out in bed before 10pm! I have been taking the Munchkin out for little treats throughout the week, and so I have been able to squeeze in a few stitches here and there. Mainly when we go to Starbucks for a little hot chocolate action. As you can see in the photo above, I've been consoling myself with coffee, knitting, and Unicorn Farts. Cause really, with an awesome name like that, who wouldn't want to fill their day with cotton candy flavoured magical lipbalm?
Ok, my time is up and I have to go pick up/check-in on the Munchkin. Just hope my heart can handle it!!